Today I give you

a poem I wrote at a very low place in my life, a place I hoped I'd never visit again but I seem to be quite close to it thanks to people who I though were my family and my life.

I Die

Here I am, but where am I?

I am with my friends, where are they?

I am alone.

Surrounded by darkness, during the day.

The sun shines, but it is dark.

I am afraid.

Take me home, I am home.

I need to feel wanted, I am not.

I hunger for love.

Fill my needs, I have few.

My thirst needs quenched,

I am drowning.

Alone, yet surrounded by people.

Afraid where I should be safe.

Unwanted when I need cared for.

Drowning in hurt and anger.

Needing calm and contentment.

Darkness overcomes me.

I sleep to take away the pain,

Dream to escape all.

Sleep forever, no pain, no hurt.

Death is the endless sleep,

It takes all anger away.

No feelings.