A new start

This poem was written about my reaction when I found out, 6 months after it happened, that my uncle who had abused me was dead.  I still live with the pain and mental anguish his abuse caused me but at least I know I'll never have to see him ever again and that his death was a painful one.

A New Start

All of my life I have lived with the pain.

You wouldn’t or couldn’t accept the blame.

Just a conspiracy is what you said

Some years later I was told you were dead

It’s over now was all they could say

But something important happened that day

The anger I had held throughout the years

Finally exploded from me in tears

I kicked and I shouted and punched and screamed,

About how really unfair it all seemed.

You had escaped without hearing from me,

The way you had caused my whole life to be.

When I calmed back down I realised that

You dying wasn’t the end but the start.

It was a beginning for me to see

My life the way I wanted it to be.

There’ll be no more anger, and no more pain,

No more will I see you time and again

You cause no more fear, that’s gone from my heart

Because your death gave me a brand new start.

Freda 2000